Time Flies

Things are just a blur lately... Time is going by so fast, it seems like yesterday that Iwas talking to the kids about starting school.  And this morning was the first of October. 

I have been working towards this one specific goal for a long time... I mean, a LONG time. Like years. And now I am working at a company that supports this goal, and will allow me to finalize my dream, as long as I jump through the right hoops to get there.  More than willing to do that of course... So, why when it seems like things are going so well, am I getting this uncontrollable urge to self destruct, and run screaming from success?? I think I am scared that something is going to go wrong at the last minute and stop from me getting this done. I really want this to go well, I pray constantly about it, and I know if it's God's will, it is going to be a success.  But I need to get over this "I am not worthy" attitude, and start allowing the good things that are happening in my life to happen, and be happy that I am accomplishing my goals. I just pray that God gives me the guidance to handle this, be happy that I am finally going to get there, and help me feel more worthy. That's my prayer, GOD, HELP ME FEEL WORTHY OF YOUR BLESSINGS...